what a long week

Wow what a week. Been busy at work and that's good, and different. Usually really slow for me. But it's been a week of sleepless or very little sleep. And when you spend that much time laying awake and staring at the cieling and walls you have way to much time to think. Then you start pondering your life, mistakes made. Hoping you don't make the same ones again. You wonder why you've made some of the choices that you've made. You ignore red flags that you see waving in front of you. Telling yourself that those aren't that important you can get over them look past it. Because you want everything to work out ok.

Then I said something to a very close friend this week that I probably should'nt have said. Not trying to cause problems or be mean. Just pointing something out and trying to help. But once again as I have a tendency to do I hear something in my head then when I say it out loud it comes out completely different. And usually wrong.

I think it's time to take a step back. Take a good long hard look. reevaluate ( not sure that's spelled right ) myself and overhaul my whole way of thinking. Time to make some changes to become a better me.

Ok now for a more positive outlook. getting closer to sighning day. Coach polini says NEBRASKA'S defense WILL BE EVEN BETTER next year. And looks like they're going to have a pretty solid recruting class. I'm kinda excited to see how next year will play out. If the offense can play somewhat close to how they played in the holiday bowl. they're going to be really good.

God bless

Keep the faith

GO BIG RED